The Anecdote

Saturday, August 18, 2007

rainy mornings are always the trigger and sleeping in till 10 30 is the bomb.
was tossing & turning in my comfy hive, finding the best positions to sleep in more but failed miserably, realizing that i have slept enough.

brunch was good even though it was just instant noodles. weather was super neato that it stimulated my laziness&sleepiness cells.
wished i could snore away the day. but no, im not that of a sack artist.
instead, accompanied my sissyinlaw to city hall to get the supersampler.
did a lil shopping @ river island after that & bought 2 tops. i seriously need to stop spending so much.
Budget Deficit, really.hankering for a job & i really do hope the starBucks interview next sun would go unhindered.

feels awfully wrong to be home so early on a sat night but its a good thing.
had a lil buzz session with mum. we havent had those daughter&mum talks in a while now, with me always choked up with school work & stuff.
but talking to her tonight makes me miss her a whole lot more.
told her everything about whats been up with me these days and about him. said it's not the worth (obviously) & she hates to see me in distraught.
felt my heart healed a lil after talking to her.

awwww, how can i live without my fab mummy & her frequent nags. & of course, my smashing dad tho we dont have that kinda talks much. haaa!

I LOVE YOU TRUCKLOAD, FOLKS. =)

random pic of my folks i found in my lappie.

and josco? IM NOT EMO!
emo & me doesnt blend in well. im just having a lil rough time now but it'll be over, SOON. =DD

Mya talked bull on 8/18/2007 09:49:00 PM

Friday, August 17, 2007

Lovey-dovey nicks & personal spaces. What do all those meant?
Conclusion i have drawn: New found love, new found girl; new found fetish.

Why does he have to keep doing this? Is it all that easy forgetting someone? All so smooth & facile that you could just completely erase memories of that being, that someone whom you had became so close with.
I was taught that the only time when you could forgot someone in just a facade of time is when that person isn’t of importance at all.
So was I that much of existence to you. So much so that you shaved off parts of your memory cells just to forget everything.
Or was I brooding over it too much. Thinking that you actually cared when all you took me as was a substitute of her.
Those words which made me feel like I’m the luckiest girl but taking them all away with just a 5 min conversation.
How could you be so callous.

i fucking wish I was like you, so it wouldn’t hurt so bad. So surpassingly bad that my throat burns & my heart freezes whenever I see what I see every single day. Those automatic tears.

Please make me forget you soon.

Mya talked bull on 8/17/2007 10:36:00 PM

Thursday, August 16, 2007

We are not infiniteWe are not permanentNothing is immediateWe're so confidentIn our accomplishmentsLook at our decadence
Life is more than moneyTime was never moneyTime was never cashLife is still more than boysLife is more than hundred dollar billsAnd roto-tom fillsLife's more than fame and rock and roll and thrillsAll the riches of the kingsEnd up in wills we got information in the information ageBut do we know what life isOutside of our convenient Lexus cages

Mya talked bull on 8/16/2007 10:38:00 PM

COOLio! i've finally bought the cap i saw @ queensway shopping center.
so damn chuffed now! =DD love it so much.

its goodbye to ugly fugly hair cuz there's a cap for me to hide it now. haaaa!
cant wait for my fringe to grow LONGERRRR so i could cut it back to my old one.

*SIGHS*
GROW HAIR GROWWWW!

feels weird to be home so early on a weekday. jessie had to head home early so we went straight back after getting my cap. thanks love for accompanying me. it was a pity you didnt get the tee. it looks great on you!

skipped enterprise lesson today. damn i have been skipping school 2 days in a row now. tsktsk. but whatever, i bought my cap and thats all that matters. HAH!
wasnt intending to go school in the morning but i forced myself up for the sake of the last computing UT for the sem. i left home @ 8 15 but i got to school at freaking 9 20 &

i MISSED THE FUCKING UT!

there went all my effort of going to school for the damn test at least.
asshordic bus-driver man.
he drove the fucking bus as tho thats the only damn journey that he would be driving for the rest of his life.
SO SLOW LIKE AN ASS.

i was cursing & swearing throughout the entire journey. FUCK.
so i left school at 10 30 & met up with jessie at khatib mrt.

bus ride home is me almost falling off my sit from dozing off in the bus 857. weeeheee!

think am gonna go for a jog later. how amazing mya!

Mya talked bull on 8/16/2007 04:21:00 PM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

skipped sci module today. SHIOK-NESS!

slept till 10 30 before heading off to school to meet up with isk & sari @ at the lib to hang out.
sneaked into class during breakout 2 to disturb my fellow bitches before going down to the lib again at 2. did some window online shopping.

AWESOME SHIT!
when's our turn waiteng darling?

i saw my eye-candy today. but that was before i got hold of his blog thru a fren & found out that he's actually one of those typical chinese dudes who mixes chinese & english together when speaking. like " i think so ba. its ok de lurhs..hahax" blah blah so on. like EEWW. turn off?!
i dont mind frens who speak like that. but its gonna be different for an eye-candy.
TOTAL PUT OFF.

anyways, drama drama drama. it was a whole lota orgasm fun we all had at the rehearsals. i love you muthas! one of the best times i have had at drama so far. wished i could hang out a lil longer just now but had to go home before mum starts breathing down my neck again.

2 by 2.

& more 2 by 2s

i love abby's prezzies. =)

check out suba's face. LMAO!

awwwwwwww! =)

AND THE PIC OF THE DAY.

PRICELESS FACE.

LOVED today. keep going on & you'll forget him mya. =)

goodnight.

Mya talked bull on 8/15/2007 11:26:00 PM

I have the pain I have to carry.
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried.
After all this time,
I never thought we'd be here,
When my love for you was blind.
But I couldn't make you see it.
I loved you more than you'll ever know.
A part of me died when I let you go.

I would fall asleep,
Only in hopes of dreaming,
That everything would be like it was before.
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting,
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor.

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone.

I've never felt this way before.
Everything that I do,
Reminds me of you.

Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too.
i can hardly breathe.
When you're gone,
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day,
And make it ok.

I miss you.

Mya talked bull on 8/15/2007 09:04:00 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

im so freaking tired that i can go on hibernating for years.

class was pretty fun today. Miss yuen rocked! always loved communications even though there were a few lessons of dryness of the problems. most chuffed of all was that im back into contact again with my old fren way back from this tuition class 5 years ago.
OMG the feeling of finding back old mates is the most awesome shit of all. thank god you checked ur mum's phone & saw that sms i sent ya eng hin! =)
great talking to you again.

i cant multi-task.

Aslamic!

goddamn gay gays on the loose. haha!

teammates; bitches unit!

breakout2 = SLACKING YOUR ASS OFF.

so we went drama mama&papas shopping at woodlands checkpoint today.

had to get some white pants for MIW for the internal preview tmr. checkpoint was supposedly well-known for selling the cheapest shit but the fucking pants are on at 20 dollars. like wtf.

Woodlands checkpoint.

so we got the white shirts at 12 each instead. bus ride from interchange to checkpoint was nauseating.

i almost vomited, stupid driver lah. @$$@$@#
luck that the ride back was sooo much better. perhaps its the cam-whoring. haaaa!

the bunch.

drama keeps my mind off things i dont wish to think about. its awesome. i dont think of him 24/7 no more. just keep yourself busy mya!

Mya talked bull on 8/14/2007 11:06:00 PM

Monday, August 13, 2007

cognitive = laze around period. gonna miss that the next sem. esp kevin & his way with the class. heee! =)

drama was awesome. it has been ice age since i hang out with the guys. finally did today. shida & suba were missing from the dramatic gang, but that's ok. there's always a next time. we ate Mac after rehearsals @CWP. love the hot fudge. yumskies!

the left-overs from a hearty meal.

the dramatics.

i love you gfs. thanks for being there!

i know i have been really down for the past few days. but you guys made me smile and i thank ya'll for being there. =)

Jess; We both know how we feel. so cheer up & it'll be a better day tmr.

Sari; i love you babe for that talk. sure you gonna get over it as well.

Abby; thank u so much love for listening & telling me i'll always have your back.

Shana; i always LOVE our bus rides.

Isk & Suba; thanks for being the bffs that you guys are.

Yan; i love your malay accent lah. =P & thanks for asking at least.

Jester; thanks for not making fun when im down. =)

I LOVE YOU DRAMA PEOPLE!

We gonna roll down the ramp on wed! =DD

Mya talked bull on 8/13/2007 11:03:00 PM

Sunday, August 12, 2007

2 entries in a day. gee mya you must be really bored. but yea indeed im bored & sore. dad&mum has gone out.
one of dad's fren's wife had passed away this late afternoon after suffering from cancer for months. last i seen of her was a year ago i guess. to think a happy healthy person like she was, is gone now. tho i dont really know her, it affected my mood to know that she's dead.

Rest in Peace.

death is a scary thing.
not gonna act strong & said its not.

was talking to Thuya the other day after his teacher passed away. he was telling me why we cry when someone has passed on. the feeling we get is cuz someone whom you think is amazing isnt
on earth anymore.
while missing her/him, u start to get afraid that you might forget them. and the tears just keeps rolling down cuz you repeat the thoughts all over again. its a one big cycle.

i didnt cry when i heard shes gone. but just a lil sad & it made me think about life & death & how we all gonna face it one day.

anyways, poor dad is down with flu. get well soon dad! =)

Mya talked bull on 8/12/2007 08:52:00 PM

home on a Sunday killing time. did some clearance & washed my Mary Jane's shoes.
the joke book i found on the book shelve got me a big laugh. been ages since i last touch the shelve; collecting spects of dust.
while browsing, i happened to lay my hands on a notebook of last year's.
flipping thru its pages brought back anamnesis of things which i have forgotten.
ah, those were the days! mugging like an ass for my O levels and lil notes here and there abt sweet lil trivial things that kept me going.

as noted in the rinky-dink yellow book, 16th july 2006 was the first that i ever seen of him. its sickening how time flies. been more than a year and it has finally ended, i guess.

raided my heart for an answer and yes, i still have those feelings which might take me forever to forgot. fucking hate myself for it.

Mya talked bull on 8/12/2007 01:29:00 PM