Friday, August 03, 2007
i felt a lil emo-ish today. i dont know what's gotten into me. i thought i've gotten over it for the past few weeks but who am i deceiving. i could lie to the whole world but i cant lie to myself and my inner feelings. i wish things arent the way they turned out to be now.
i miss the old days where i had that silly-childish-but-amazing someone who was there for me whenever i needed him and me, being there for him as well. the emptiness inside me is like a torture. the feelings just wouldnt go away. im sure he has moved on with life and all but i dont know about myself. hate it when i act like a stupid asshole feeling all sad and depressed cuz its SO not me. i cant help it tho. it hurts so bad. i dont know what the hell ever happened to my old strong self.
perhaps im not sad because i have lost him but cuz i have lost a very good friend whom i have always confided my feelings and those hours of talking, it's fucked. those days are gone now, just like a snap of the finger and i'm never gonna get them back again, forever. its true when they say; all good things comes to an end. SO TRUE INDEED.
all i have to do now is to get over it and move on. a piece of me was gone together with the past and i dont want another of mine to dissolve away further. time will tell all and i really hope we could be that close again. but how we gonna do that when we dont even talk no more..
Life = Get up, survive and go back to bed.
Mya talked bull on 8/03/2007 10:46:00 PM
freaking cut my hair today. it was bangs and a rush decision made. didnt know what was i thinking when the words left my mouth and shoot off to the hair stylist. jessica said i look younger and fresher; better than my previous 'pau' hairstyle. HAHA!
awwww well, i just hope the fringe would grow back in no time and thats it, IM CHANGING IT BACK TO MY OLD HAIRSTYLE..jpg)
i look like an ass in the pic.
Mya talked bull on 8/03/2007 12:30:00 AM
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
the official open house for RP was yesterday. the waiting part for the PM to arrive was so not cool. worst of all, i was wearing a dress so i had to pull over the RP shirt over it. but, after all that sweaty and stomach growling session, it was ALL SO AWESOME! the after party was so happening and the food was pretty good for a school buffet dinner. so we all party-ed till 11+. bunch of us gfs wanted to get some booze but were freaking tired from the whole thing, so i shared a cab home with jessica love after that. when i got home and finally sat down, my legs were all so numb and achy from all that standing and dancing. rested for a lil while before showering. was waiting for james to help me out with this whole blog thing cuz im a total noob at this but he was playing games so didnt wanna disturb him. hope he'll be online later, soon.so yea, thats my 2nd entry right there. =)and here are the pics from the night.
Mya talked bull on 8/01/2007 09:22:00 PM
OK so i finally made a godamn blog in my 18 years of life. haa! seems fun since almost everyone in class has it and been blogging occasionally. so yea, HELLO TO MY BLOG! =D
i just hope i can keep up with a up to date entry everyday.
and sissy & myself went shopping the other day after for what it seems like a million years. miss those good ol' sistas days man, fuck!
I MISS MY OLD HAIR! =(
Mya talked bull on 8/01/2007 12:44:00 AM
