Friday, August 03, 2007
i felt a lil emo-ish today. i dont know what's gotten into me. i thought i've gotten over it for the past few weeks but who am i deceiving. i could lie to the whole world but i cant lie to myself and my inner feelings. i wish things arent the way they turned out to be now.
i miss the old days where i had that silly-childish-but-amazing someone who was there for me whenever i needed him and me, being there for him as well. the emptiness inside me is like a torture. the feelings just wouldnt go away. im sure he has moved on with life and all but i dont know about myself. hate it when i act like a stupid asshole feeling all sad and depressed cuz its SO not me. i cant help it tho. it hurts so bad. i dont know what the hell ever happened to my old strong self.
perhaps im not sad because i have lost him but cuz i have lost a very good friend whom i have always confided my feelings and those hours of talking, it's fucked. those days are gone now, just like a snap of the finger and i'm never gonna get them back again, forever. its true when they say; all good things comes to an end. SO TRUE INDEED.
all i have to do now is to get over it and move on. a piece of me was gone together with the past and i dont want another of mine to dissolve away further. time will tell all and i really hope we could be that close again. but how we gonna do that when we dont even talk no more..
Life = Get up, survive and go back to bed.
Mya talked bull on 8/03/2007 10:46:00 PM
