The Rat Race

Life, as it is.

2007-11-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

im sick of being initiative.
im sick of being rejected at the last minute.
im sick of thinking why is that so.
im sick of avoiding reality.
im sick of him being an indecisive moronic freak.

he's not even worth to be my friend.

I GIVE UP.
someone slap me in the face if i ever talk about him again.

Blond.

2007-11-05T20:44:00.001+08:00

i dyed my hair on sun and its hideous. horrid. whitish gold got beaten down on the battle against yellowish gold. fuck. i dont wanna look like a minah. =(

trust me when i say its a million times more blondish than this. :/

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2007-10-23T22:25:00.001+08:00

so i didnt get a C for enterprise. pardon me, but it seemed as tho it didnt make any difference between speaking up and keeping mum. whatever it is, its still a freakin B.

bar test tmr; WHHEEEEE NOT! having dean as the SM isnt gonna help either.
total suckage.
fuck flu & coughs of 2/min. @%^#$@%

Pffff.

2007-10-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

flufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflu

flufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflufluflu

and my nose's running away.

awesome module to end off the week and HELLO to work at 7 am tmr morning.

RISE & SHINE man. :/

and i miss saiful darling, my lesbian bitch. =)

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2007-10-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

screw Internet connections last night. screw it so hard for disabling me to write RJ for my sexyass sci faci's module.

anyway, awesome party-boogying-groovying session we had in class yesterday guys! my bad for skipping school today. sick lah.
so to that, we SHALL continue on thursday. =)

and back to communicating 101 with him. i wouldnt make stupid asshordic moves anymore. i just want things to remain the way it is now.

Monday Blues

2007-10-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

comedy improv went pretty alright for a last min decision.

enterprise was as dry as the sahara desert; so whinny and prosaic that i fell asleep while focusing on the blankness.

prediction for daily grade: C

and jesse love, thank you so much for that lil bus talk just now. =)

fuck-ed

2007-10-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

prediction's been accepted and dealt with. does avoidance really defeat the purpose of facing to problems?
been 3 days now and everything that have had taken place for that aching 3 months were rewind yet again, like a record.
happiness is short-lived, just like Aids; it wouldnt survive long in the atmosphere.

if i asked myself for regret? yea, i did. perhaps those words i said that night shouldnt be mentioned at all. if true bottled-up feelings werent revealed, i wouldnt have lost him, again.

gota face it.
thank god, for work is keeping me really busy.

and cameltoe lovelovelove waiteng; I LOVE YOU BABY!

thanks for accompanying me on fri evening.

Happy birthday lover!

2007-10-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

time to sweep up flakes of cyber dust off my blog. im finally gonna start blabbering down stuff again. what 2 weeks i have had! the play officially ended on the 29th & boy was it the biggest hit! but just as i was about to let off the heat, work came in. poooof.

thank god i shopped on fri and yes, i love you girls for accompanying me today as well. =)

TO MY CAMELTOE waiteng: HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY BITCH!

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove

lovelovelovelovelovelove =D

Angels white.

2007-09-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

pretty in white, we snapped a gazillion of pictures during the breakout. amazing how fast the bond grew in just a week and a half. rated the best lesson out of the last 6 so far, i was mad chuffed that i concentrated hard enuf to last me through the whole 2 meetings.

W46M
check out that sexy yo!
oooooow sexies! =)
girls, girls, girls.

tammy!

i love you fulful! =DDDDDD

production rehearsals got me petered out but i loved those in-between chattery-chat-chat i had with you mates. love you bunch. much violation & harassment occurred among the girls ( if you know what i mean ;) BUT HOLY FUCK, i love you guys! =D

and thanks isk for piggy-back. =)

yada-yada

2007-09-23T18:26:00.000+08:00

it wasnt mega happening @ the flea yesterday. guess it wasnt well publicized. altho i have to admit that it was a fat experience i have had tending the stall and having fun with the girls.

shall do it again soon, this time with more preparation; that i've learnt. haa!

super tongue action. bottom right-hand corner. i want coca-cola. =D cheesy-ball treats. flea bunch.

starbuck's first in-store training kinda sucked ass. I'm allergic to unfriendly specimens. how'd you expect the staffs to be chummy when the asst. manager herself looked like she bites. yikes. talk about partners "helping" each other eh. my asshole.

Hacked.

2007-09-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

first week of school was just gone like that, without me having a single day off & having to get my butt home early. POOPED-OUT from all that mad rush from north to south & all around the island. felt like a messed up piece of worn out tyres.

class began to bond today. it's cool with all that cam-whoring and boom-boom music. =)

i love my lesbian bitch. =)

love you fufu; my lesbian partner!
and my cameltoe, thanks for lunching with me, your fortune cookie. haha!

i miss that asshole bf. =(

flea's tmr & i cant wait baby.

tired ass.

2007-09-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

booo, its been 3 days since i last made an entry. prolly the busiest & slumberous month i've had since O levels.

hectic and turmoil it has been since day 1 of sem2. sch so far is fine, altho i had to make a mad dash of 2 consecutive days for the trainings. tiring shit!

3 cheers for not having any trainings today. tmr's gonna be a huge problem tho; art of espresso class. good luck man.

and thanks jamie for coming all the way to W4 to look for me. =)

occasional fluxes of giving up but hang in there mya!

Crashes at home.

2007-09-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

i got to stay home today, finally after being out for the whole damn week & the weeks before. funny how i miss bumping around at home. been snoozing the whole day & mastered a couple of skills for photography. i deserve a pat. =D

holidays are coming to an end, what a downer!
really do hope new class's gonna be a nut bunch.

Starbuck session 1.

2007-09-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

first day of class with starbuck went as smooth & yummy as a ben&jerry's icecream.
made new bunch of chicks&dudes, definitely. call it fate or what, 3 of them are from RP as well.

next lesson is on a mon, official opening after 3 weeks of break. we shall go for the course together, as agreed. =)

i hate to say this but drama's getting alil too asshordic. some ppl just dont know how to keep unnecessary comments to themselves.

The attack of the Oddballs

2007-09-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

13th of sept marks the day of let-loose oddballs who raided the whole town of Singapore.

Granny on number 12 was wayyy peculiar than she looked. her source of accomplice is her ancient umbrella which she used it as a weapon to attack poor innocent civilians; both verbally & physically. tsktsk. she really cracked us up with her nonsensical act tho. AAAHAA! & jess is right, she reeked of excessive saliva.

number 2 on the list is Mr Indian; this time accompanied by a nicely wrapped package of long metal fins. of all the places to go & of all the people to ask, he HAD to come inside Topshop and approached us to guide him on directions to any place which sells buttoned-up collared shirts.
wtf?!

3rd came in while on the bus ride back home. apparently, The Woman beside me was "rockin" to her mp3. felt as tho a boom box was placed right beside me. but the weird thing was, she was MAD grooving to it, so much so that i could feel vibrations. gee. her head was like a roller coaster. hilarious really.

case closed.
good night. =)

acrossed.

2007-09-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

100% pooped & jaded.
i've never travelled from one end of the island to the other.
i feel ya, train operator. =)

bbq with starbuck partners were alright, i guess.
perhaps im a newbie & they are "lao-jiaos", so it was pretty randomly weird to show up since work hasnt started for me yet.
it wouldnt be long enuf before we work together as a team so it should get better, uhhuh.

i miss loverboy. didnt get a chance to talk to him today. guess hes asleep.
alarm's gonna ring in 7 hours time. i should turn in now.

last thing: HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY BRO! =)
good night world! =D

Aches are the muscles.

2007-09-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

coon's age since i clicked the mouse for my blog. busy like an ass.

kallang meet up with the dramatics was coolio. didnt expect PA to house truckload of awesome stuff for our production.
silly abby couldnt wake up & so the crew waited for her till 12.

itchy hand produces pics like these, esp when your wack bored outa your mind while waiting.

much walking done today & my legs are like wwhhooofuuuuu yooooo, bitchy-ly aching away.
thank god we found stuff in cheena-town. it was pretty worth the trip.

another PRICELESS LOOK of bff's.

costume-hopping is not cool. its ball-busting accompanied by aching leg muscles.

thank u abby love for paying first. =D my bad for being sucha popcorn-headed bitch. haha!

i love you sleazeball.

2007-09-08T19:00:00.001+08:00

i miss b-f; that sleazeball ass.
stop trying to agitate me with your nonsense.

The real badass cameltoes.

2007-09-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

another dosage of waking up in the early morning.
argh, i need more sleep!

Myanmar Embassy is a fuck-tard place utilized with twisted living beings; sadly known as humans, fixed with fake dogmatic cranky smiles on their faces.
it took up 5 hours of my day, just to get a simple document done.
whats the whole purpose behind of paying stacks of banknotes to the nymphs of mother bitches when they cant do a good job.
i bet their fav pastime is collecting human chain of queues.
mofos.
i crave for 21 to catch up where i could officially become a singaporean & free myself from shityhell kingdom polluted with mother-bitches cocka-nardans.
pussies, really.

apart from hardcore pissed off league, i have had a sinful indulgence 30 mins ago.

50-50 by sissy & me for sissy-in-law's birthday of 26.
i hope you like it, love! =D
yummilicious-ness but ouch, there went all my jogs. =( PS: i forgot to take a pic before cutting the cake, thus the half eaten image. =D

Happy birthday love. =)

2007-09-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to sissy-in-law! =)

time really files, eh?

her students are amazing people i should say. as an onlooker, i felt the warmth they infra-red it out to her.

this cheeky & gabby 9 year old who urged me to play badminton with him. haha! mega cuteness.

tons of awesome fun time i had with you guys.

shall hang out again, soon. =)

& im MAD pissed with him. indecisive brat you.

but whatever happens, please dont hurt me all over again.

if your gonna make an encore of fooling around with me, put a stop to it now before i bite back.

Blabber

2007-09-06T11:01:00.000+08:00

what a lazy sleazy morning.
supposed to make up for the hours of sleep i had lost the previous night but mum HAD to wake me up at 8 30. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*
household chores are waiting in line for my touch. what a pain.
good luck mya!

things pretty much cooled off & boy, am i glad those days are back again. =)
time really tells all.

Shoes&Balls

2007-09-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

holy cow, it took me 3 days before i got hold of the running shoes i've intended on buying.

i'd say, when it comes to exercising, enthusiasm hits rock bottom.
tsktsktsk.

thank you lover wt for accompanying me all the way to queens'. =DD
the uncle @ the store was pretty annoying, swarming me with sized 8's even after reminding him nicely that im NOT a size 8. pfff.

ikea's crowd was pretty much bare at 9 when we raided the store.

i was apparently shaking from hunger with not having to enjoy a proper edibles for the whole day & we settled down to a chow of BALLS frenzy.

yeaaaahhh babey!

i loved the long bus ride back home & the feeling of dozing off tops off the whole journey. =)

My pau hairdo is BACK! HAPPY SHIT MAN. goodbye to china doll. haaa!

Stick Figures.

2007-09-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

caught a glimpse of "hey gorgeous" on tv earlier & i would say, those people DO NOT own a single speck of taste. cancelling the whole damn show to prevent further mortification would do the trick actually. the word loses its substance to claim-to-be gorgeous typical stereotypes Singaporeans. it reminds me of how the society is being brain-washed into trusting that bones are hot.

To the typical click of people, beauty is equivalent to:
1. ALL BONES
2. Short & petite to the teee
3. All flats, to the front & to the back.

TASTELESS.
what jamie's bf & herself said is Factual with the capital F.
smaller dicks=smaller holes. LMAO!
midgets turn them on.

i know what an average Joe Singaporean guy would say when they read this.
"cuz your big what! thats why your jealous of them girls being SKINNY & NICE."
oh pls, get a life; a proper anorexic-free life to that.
you wouldnt wanna break them bones, would u?

im guessing they are allergic to curves & real women.
i'd say, get a kid.

Wedding bells.

2007-09-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

finally got my ass down to boogee street to grab that fab vintage bag i swore on purchasing by this weekend. WHHEEEEEE-WHHOOO!

Granny's day out retailed it at 100 plus but i got it at 69, which is pretty much considered A-okay.

& the big news is that, sis of mine is getting married! the date is set to be next year, march.
50-50 happiness i would say. she getting affiliate with her dude only means that she wouldnt be around at home anymore. which also means that im gonna get all troglodytic & stuff like that.

aaha! NOT!
gonna miss her tho.

gown try-outs session with sis went on for 4 whole freaking hours this afternoon. horrid period cramps hit me with chills down my spine & the air-con werent helping either.

survival skills man.

left the place @ 5 & had to hook up with a cup of hot choco @ starbuck before heading down to bugis. it definitely killed all that annoying cramped muscles, tho bus ride wasnt all that pleasant with me spilling driblets of them brown down my white top.

ARGH! EMBARRASSMENT REALLY.

thank god for bugis has an outlet of dorothyperkins.

so conclusion is that: i bought a new tee, in replacement of my soiled white top. =D

another conclusion: you gain another when you've lost something.

UHHUH UHHUH!

shopping alone sometimes isnt that bad. =D

gota get them running shoes tmr!

UHHUH!

2007-09-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

hey ho, finally got down to the real deal today.

im chuffed, just by staring blankly at my new organizer.

i've got it all planned out & i FREAKING CANT WAIT for the fleamarket on the 22nd!
nich, jessi, mel & i are gonna set up a stall @ the tunnel party.
hmm, perhaps if there is to be enough ticks of the clock, we could check out homeclub's on that same day.
AWESOME SHIT EH!

i need to invest on a good running shoe.

tmr shall be it, where i'll spend another long bus ride to queens' to check out the shoes.

Tues's refund.

2007-08-30T13:10:00.000+08:00

i didnt make an entry for tues & thought i should make up for it.

the pics from nich's got sent to me this morning. yay. =)

the girls & i had a blast tues night. dinner @ fish&co was fishyly-first-rated.

we all tucked in once food was served on the table & totally forgotten about the camera.

5 mins walk to boat quay helped relieved my bloated tummy & before we checked out the pubs @ clarke quay, we stopped by at this jazz pub @ boat quay.

it looked pretty cool.

watching 2 rounds of upclose&personal g-max bungy made me want to loose free & get wild with it. but no, my timid half stopped me within a second. haha!

so clarke quay was flooded with 3/4 HOT angmohs. bet hooters is the angmoh's fav place. *wink*

we wanted to go sit around in one of the pubs but as broke as we were that night, we bought drinks from cheers instead & sat down by the river to end off the night.

gfs

awesome night girls! loved!

tunnel fun.

poor jessie had to queue for the stink of a milion toilet at the mrt while heading back home. thank god for her, nich found the hidden treasure of the handicap toilet.

another outing, when? =DD

Char-ed, Epi 2.

2007-08-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

im char-ed, again. its worse this time.
my face is burning up, like matches stuck onto my skin.
but nevertheless, east coast day out with the dramatics was all soaking fun & awesome time indeed.
the producers&directors did quite fine into tricking us into believing that some VIP shit wanna watch the preview. haaa!
got dunk by shida & swallowed a whole million kg of salt & dirt.
tsktsk. stupid ass lah SHIT-da!
"spin the fish" was coolio. =DD
guess it was worth the burnt altho i earned 2 aching knees from all that biking. =)

things between me & my folks got heated up again.
I WANNA WORKKKKKKKKKKK! =(((
why're you guys making such a big issue out of it?!

Yabber-yabyab

2007-08-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

aching muscles & headaches; i think im falling sick soon.
i need a breather.
hope i still can make it for morning-pool-hang-out session with the girls tmr. there's still so much left to do & i doubt 3 weeks is enough.

Definitions of 'a holiday'
1. A day fixed by law or custom on which ordinary business is suspended in commemoration of some event or in honor of some person.

2. Any day of exemption from work

3. A time or period of exemption from any requirement, duty, assessment, etc.: FROM SCHOOL.

so, why is it that since primary school, holidays were never fully holidays since school had to push its way in. & i thought sec sch was worse but PFF!
poly is the worst.
why do they call it a HOLIDAY in the first place. the word has become meaningless & students have grown numb to it.
tsk.

ok im tired of being a complaining asshordic bitch.
i'll say night now.

A different perception unleashed.

2007-08-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

the quibble between my folks and me officially ended earlier this evening.
thank god.
part-time job issue was brought up time & time again but dad was firmly against me working, esp in the F&B business. i guess they have their own reasons for the rebut.

starbuck interview went cakeroll smooth. i like the assistant manager. shes cool.
but damn, really hate to say no to the offer. *BIG SIGH-NESS*

bus ride home is the bomb which exploded my pathetic senses off & brought me back to reality & the real mya, the real ME.
thought hard & long enough for an hour journey back home. couldnt believe i wasted SO MUCH precious time on things which arent important at all.

wasted all that effort & tears which are pointless & useless.
not gonna be sore about the past anymore.

it took my heart an ocean TOO long to reach my brain & rest assure it that HE'S not worth a single tiny winsy bit.
but really, i give myself a pat on the shoulder to realize it now at least. did some scheduling for important school stuff & what more.
not gonna care about anything anymore, cept doing what i really wished to do a long time ago & learn many more new things life has to offer.
you can do it, mya.

aunt & uncle came over for dinner. its been a while since i saw 'cle with him staying in NewZealand.
thanks for the advises. =)

stayput; home.

2007-08-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

school's out & holiday rushes in. what a nice feeling of sleeping in & not having to wake up so early in the morning.

intended to stay put at home for the whole afternoon, but mum wanted me to accompany her for some grocery shopping. it's been a while i shopped for grocery. heavy stuff, really.

igs are driving me mad.
if im not gonna be appreciated for all that i've done, i'll say, fuck you & quit.

dont push me, V.

was watching tv in the hall just now with mum & some random movie was broadcasted on channel 5, titled Kung Pow (Enter the fist).

i swear its the lamest shit i have watched so far. i cant take the crappies & stupidity of it. haaa!

those feelings came looking for me all over again.
grrrrrr why cant you just get over it now.

the final.

2007-08-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

so that was it, the last day of sem 1.

gonna say it again how time have zoomed past over the past 5 months.
the time bomb has finally exploded.
SO GONNA MISS my class like fuck.
all those wacky goofy times we had.

we had a lil party in class to end off the whole separating thing. a few of us brought food from home for the class. james made sushi. god, love the wasabi. its amazing cuz hes a guy, and its kinda unusual to see a guy cooks or make lil snacks like that. so james, say thanks to me. =)

and i'll say thanks to all who has made something for the class. love!

deliciousness.

i love you people.

i love my bitches.

the 'if-onlys' frequent my mind often these few days esp while thinking about how things could happen and change so fast, like a click of the camera.
all good things will eventually come to an end. thats how things work. but we'll just have to get used to it & move on.
no doubt that i hate to separate from the class but its a fact, so be it. sure we gonna bump into one another after sch reopens for sem 2. =)

finally saw johnne after weeks. u owe me for that walk to the interchange! =P

hope your hair grows back fast as well. =DD haha!

baked.

2007-08-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

tomorrow, 23rd aug marks the end of the sem. it also means no more W24N after school reopens.

hate the way RP's being run sometimes.
when all is good & bonds are built, we all just have to say goodbye & meet more people & make friends with them all over again.

a tiring & almost annoying process that i dont really dig.

WT love came over to my place after school to bake chocolate chip cookies for the class tmr.

super-duper hardcore awesome lah.

stupid oven kinda ruined it a lil, resulting in her leaving pretty early for home to bake the other half of the mixture of cocoa&flour.
hope the amount wasnt too much for you to bake gf! heee =)

choco chips fun.

love you gf.

the whole apartment is flooded with the aromatic smell of freshly baked cookies.

cant wait for tmr.

goodnight world. =)

Char-ed.

2007-08-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

im burnt; chao ta.

my cheeks are red with stinging hot fudge toping.

aside of the rant, i had FUN today.
miss yuen's last lesson with us top the chart list.

treasure hunt around the damn school shagged off my fats after brunch of ban mian at 10 30 & our team's game @ the swimming pool was next.

what treasure hunt had done to us.

i dont know about the class but the girls & myself were practially enjoying ourselves so much so that i have forgotten about sunblock lotion. tsktsk. the apples were juicilicous, arent they lovers? haha!

check out my burnt face. tsktsk. chlorine washed apples are the sex. HAAA!

but aww, my team came in last at the end of the day & we had to do a forfeit. if being red from the burnt wasnt enough, raynell just had to make it even redder. LOL!

monkey's-ass-clownish-waiyang-singer wannabe.
chlorine drenched but i wouldnt miss this for the world. =)

2 more days to the holidays.
i need a job.

4th last lesson.

2007-08-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

i woke up late, AGAIN, for the hundredth time. couldnt help it. im just not a morning person.

class was the fastest pace i have seen yet so far. 6th presentation ended at 12.
FUCKING AWESOME I TELL YOU!

the whole bunch @ W24N loves you lah, KEVIN. =DD
thank you for the chocolates as well.
crosses my fingers that i'll get you as a facilitator again for next sem. haha!

my handsome faci.PS: i dont mean it. =D
my hidden identity with half of the class.

sept 29th production preview during breakout 2 was over in a whirl. couldnt figure out why i didnt bother to click on the camera at that point.
before i realized it, the preview was over. aww well. only managed a pic after the whole thing since they were rushing to head back to class.

isk, natasha (imitating the typical ahlian pose, LOL) & yan.

and shana, im really glad that you guys worked it all out & i loved our bus ride home, AS USUAL! =D

Photoshoot, bangBANG.

2007-08-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

day started off with me; sleepy head getting up early to get ready for the photo shoot for my dad's magazine.

so happened that the model's bro's gf is the same girl i 've seen on friendster the other day. small world i would say.
momo (the burmese model) is REALLY pretty.

the make-up artist added on the extra touch of beauty through his handy makeup box and those brushes & compacts & curlers & straighteners that worked like magic wands.
damn, amazing what good make-up could do.
even so, it wouldnt work wonders w/o the makeup artist himself.

behind the scenes of the final touchdown.

makeup artist & myself.
bro @ work; doing his thang.

i thought i shall cam-whore a lil too. =)

so my sunday was just gone; snap, like that. but i had fun & those experiences that i've gained from the shoot, chuffed that it's gonna be of help in my future endeavours since that's the line im in. & besides, i've gained 2 more pretty gfs. haaa!

4 more days of torture in school & its gonna be the holidays. CANT WAIT LAH.

gastric, please go away soon. =(

My folks, your first-rated.

2007-08-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

rainy mornings are always the trigger and sleeping in till 10 30 is the bomb.
was tossing & turning in my comfy hive, finding the best positions to sleep in more but failed miserably, realizing that i have slept enough.

brunch was good even though it was just instant noodles. weather was super neato that it stimulated my laziness&sleepiness cells.
wished i could snore away the day. but no, im not that of a sack artist.
instead, accompanied my sissyinlaw to city hall to get the supersampler.
did a lil shopping @ river island after that & bought 2 tops. i seriously need to stop spending so much.
Budget Deficit, really.hankering for a job & i really do hope the starBucks interview next sun would go unhindered.

feels awfully wrong to be home so early on a sat night but its a good thing.
had a lil buzz session with mum. we havent had those daughter&mum talks in a while now, with me always choked up with school work & stuff.
but talking to her tonight makes me miss her a whole lot more.
told her everything about whats been up with me these days and about him. said it's not the worth (obviously) & she hates to see me in distraught.
felt my heart healed a lil after talking to her.

awwww, how can i live without my fab mummy & her frequent nags. & of course, my smashing dad tho we dont have that kinda talks much. haaa!

I LOVE YOU TRUCKLOAD, FOLKS. =)

random pic of my folks i found in my lappie.

and josco? IM NOT EMO!
emo & me doesnt blend in well. im just having a lil rough time now but it'll be over, SOON. =DD

so what does it all mean.

2007-08-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

Lovey-dovey nicks & personal spaces. What do all those meant?
Conclusion i have drawn: New found love, new found girl; new found fetish.

Why does he have to keep doing this? Is it all that easy forgetting someone? All so smooth & facile that you could just completely erase memories of that being, that someone whom you had became so close with.
I was taught that the only time when you could forgot someone in just a facade of time is when that person isn’t of importance at all.
So was I that much of existence to you. So much so that you shaved off parts of your memory cells just to forget everything.
Or was I brooding over it too much. Thinking that you actually cared when all you took me as was a substitute of her.
Those words which made me feel like I’m the luckiest girl but taking them all away with just a 5 min conversation.
How could you be so callous.

i fucking wish I was like you, so it wouldn’t hurt so bad. So surpassingly bad that my throat burns & my heart freezes whenever I see what I see every single day. Those automatic tears.

Please make me forget you soon.

There's more to it.

2007-08-16T22:38:00.000+08:00

We are not infiniteWe are not permanentNothing is immediateWe're so confidentIn our accomplishmentsLook at our decadence
Life is more than moneyTime was never moneyTime was never cashLife is still more than boysLife is more than hundred dollar billsAnd roto-tom fillsLife's more than fame and rock and roll and thrillsAll the riches of the kingsEnd up in wills we got information in the information ageBut do we know what life isOutside of our convenient Lexus cages

Fringe Phobia.

2007-08-16T16:21:00.000+08:00

COOLio! i've finally bought the cap i saw @ queensway shopping center.
so damn chuffed now! =DD love it so much.

its goodbye to ugly fugly hair cuz there's a cap for me to hide it now. haaaa!
cant wait for my fringe to grow LONGERRRR so i could cut it back to my old one.

*SIGHS*
GROW HAIR GROWWWW!

feels weird to be home so early on a weekday. jessie had to head home early so we went straight back after getting my cap. thanks love for accompanying me. it was a pity you didnt get the tee. it looks great on you!

skipped enterprise lesson today. damn i have been skipping school 2 days in a row now. tsktsk. but whatever, i bought my cap and thats all that matters. HAH!
wasnt intending to go school in the morning but i forced myself up for the sake of the last computing UT for the sem. i left home @ 8 15 but i got to school at freaking 9 20 &

i MISSED THE FUCKING UT!

there went all my effort of going to school for the damn test at least.
asshordic bus-driver man.
he drove the fucking bus as tho thats the only damn journey that he would be driving for the rest of his life.
SO SLOW LIKE AN ASS.

i was cursing & swearing throughout the entire journey. FUCK.
so i left school at 10 30 & met up with jessie at khatib mrt.

bus ride home is me almost falling off my sit from dozing off in the bus 857. weeeheee!

think am gonna go for a jog later. how amazing mya!

Biggest cam-whore session in History.

2007-08-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

skipped sci module today. SHIOK-NESS!

slept till 10 30 before heading off to school to meet up with isk & sari @ at the lib to hang out.
sneaked into class during breakout 2 to disturb my fellow bitches before going down to the lib again at 2. did some window online shopping.

AWESOME SHIT!
when's our turn waiteng darling?

i saw my eye-candy today. but that was before i got hold of his blog thru a fren & found out that he's actually one of those typical chinese dudes who mixes chinese & english together when speaking. like " i think so ba. its ok de lurhs..hahax" blah blah so on. like EEWW. turn off?!
i dont mind frens who speak like that. but its gonna be different for an eye-candy.
TOTAL PUT OFF.

anyways, drama drama drama. it was a whole lota orgasm fun we all had at the rehearsals. i love you muthas! one of the best times i have had at drama so far. wished i could hang out a lil longer just now but had to go home before mum starts breathing down my neck again.

2 by 2.

& more 2 by 2s

i love abby's prezzies. =)

check out suba's face. LMAO!

awwwwwwww! =)

AND THE PIC OF THE DAY.

PRICELESS FACE.

LOVED today. keep going on & you'll forget him mya. =)

goodnight.

bits&pieces taken from songs which tells it all.

2007-08-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

I have the pain I have to carry.
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried.
After all this time,
I never thought we'd be here,
When my love for you was blind.
But I couldn't make you see it.
I loved you more than you'll ever know.
A part of me died when I let you go.

I would fall asleep,
Only in hopes of dreaming,
That everything would be like it was before.
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting,
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor.

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone.

I've never felt this way before.
Everything that I do,
Reminds me of you.

Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone,
The pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone,
The face I came to know is missing too.
i can hardly breathe.
When you're gone,
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day,
And make it ok.

I miss you.

Woodlands CheckPoint.

2007-08-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

im so freaking tired that i can go on hibernating for years.

class was pretty fun today. Miss yuen rocked! always loved communications even though there were a few lessons of dryness of the problems. most chuffed of all was that im back into contact again with my old fren way back from this tuition class 5 years ago.
OMG the feeling of finding back old mates is the most awesome shit of all. thank god you checked ur mum's phone & saw that sms i sent ya eng hin! =)
great talking to you again.

i cant multi-task.

Aslamic!

goddamn gay gays on the loose. haha!

teammates; bitches unit!

breakout2 = SLACKING YOUR ASS OFF.

so we went drama mama&papas shopping at woodlands checkpoint today.

had to get some white pants for MIW for the internal preview tmr. checkpoint was supposedly well-known for selling the cheapest shit but the fucking pants are on at 20 dollars. like wtf.

Woodlands checkpoint.

so we got the white shirts at 12 each instead. bus ride from interchange to checkpoint was nauseating.

i almost vomited, stupid driver lah. @$$@$@#
luck that the ride back was sooo much better. perhaps its the cam-whoring. haaaa!

the bunch.

drama keeps my mind off things i dont wish to think about. its awesome. i dont think of him 24/7 no more. just keep yourself busy mya!

The dramatic bunch own it all.

2007-08-13T23:03:00.001+08:00

cognitive = laze around period. gonna miss that the next sem. esp kevin & his way with the class. heee! =)

drama was awesome. it has been ice age since i hang out with the guys. finally did today. shida & suba were missing from the dramatic gang, but that's ok. there's always a next time. we ate Mac after rehearsals @CWP. love the hot fudge. yumskies!

the left-overs from a hearty meal.

the dramatics.i love you gfs. thanks for being there!

i know i have been really down for the past few days. but you guys made me smile and i thank ya'll for being there. =)

Jess; We both know how we feel. so cheer up & it'll be a better day tmr.

Sari; i love you babe for that talk. sure you gonna get over it as well.

Abby; thank u so much love for listening & telling me i'll always have your back.

Shana; i always LOVE our bus rides.

Isk & Suba; thanks for being the bffs that you guys are.

Yan; i love your malay accent lah. =P & thanks for asking at least.

Jester; thanks for not making fun when im down. =)

I LOVE YOU DRAMA PEOPLE!

We gonna roll down the ramp on wed! =DD

-

2007-08-12T20:52:00.001+08:00

2 entries in a day. gee mya you must be really bored. but yea indeed im bored & sore. dad&mum has gone out.
one of dad's fren's wife had passed away this late afternoon after suffering from cancer for months. last i seen of her was a year ago i guess. to think a happy healthy person like she was, is gone now. tho i dont really know her, it affected my mood to know that she's dead.

Rest in Peace.

death is a scary thing.
not gonna act strong & said its not.

was talking to Thuya the other day after his teacher passed away. he was telling me why we cry when someone has passed on. the feeling we get is cuz someone whom you think is amazing isnt
on earth anymore.
while missing her/him, u start to get afraid that you might forget them. and the tears just keeps rolling down cuz you repeat the thoughts all over again. its a one big cycle.

i didnt cry when i heard shes gone. but just a lil sad & it made me think about life & death & how we all gonna face it one day.

anyways, poor dad is down with flu. get well soon dad! =)

The Notebook.

2007-08-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

home on a Sunday killing time. did some clearance & washed my Mary Jane's shoes.
the joke book i found on the book shelve got me a big laugh. been ages since i last touch the shelve; collecting spects of dust.
while browsing, i happened to lay my hands on a notebook of last year's.
flipping thru its pages brought back anamnesis of things which i have forgotten.
ah, those were the days! mugging like an ass for my O levels and lil notes here and there abt sweet lil trivial things that kept me going.

as noted in the rinky-dink yellow book, 16th july 2006 was the first that i ever seen of him. its sickening how time flies. been more than a year and it has finally ended, i guess.

raided my heart for an answer and yes, i still have those feelings which might take me forever to forgot. fucking hate myself for it.

Reminiscences.

2007-08-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

i finally met up with JJ with my new fren, Anna over lunch at billy bombers; marina square. havent seen him since the chalet last dec. STOP EATING SO MUCH LAH JJ! hahaa. & was nice knowing you Anna. =)

so after lunch, we separated and i waited for jessie to come meet me at bugis. while waiting, i went over to bras basah and looked up some books on fashion designing. OH-SO-AWESOME-SHIT man!

jessie came around 4 30 and accompanied me around to find a suitable cap to hide my hair SOON when it gets longer cuz the growing process

REALLY suck.

this gonna be my new hair cut after this current hair. cant wait! =)

thought topman would have those i wanted but disappointment. but i thought of queensway shopping center suddenly and we took 33 down. i think im the only asshole who hasnt been to queensway shopping center before. haha! the exterior of the building made it look like the most dullsville shopping mall of the century but the interior isnt so bad. some of the shops inside really attracted my attention. found this really coool cap which costs 37 after discount. was damn itchy to buy it but gota wait till my allowance comes in on the 15th & it'll be MINE! shopping date again jess baby. =) took 855 home after that. love long bus rides when you could think of stuff peacefully w/o any interference. thank you jessie for accompanying me today. love u!

some thoughts while on bus 33 & the journey: The roads, buildings and an area it passed by remind me of the past, the memories. it all came back to me, multiple flashbacks and i was emo yet again. didnt know how saddening it was to lose something so impt. well, i do now & its suffocating. if i could rewind back time, i wish i NEVER have that talk that fri night. if it didnt happen, we would still be the best of frens & all this shit wouldnt have happened.

it kills to know its not coming back forever.

restless night.

2007-08-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

its 1 27 am and BOOOOOOOOOOO i cant seem to sleep. =(
I'm so dead tired from the day's bustling about but just cant seem to rest yet. perhaps my mind is choked up with thoughts so much so that its difficult to let go everything and have a good sleep. have always been one who could take things easy and express myself well but look what's happening to me now. i don't know how i feel anymore. just feel like giving up everything and running away to a place where no shit could find me. I'm so sick of the pretentious world; human beings and their feelings.

*sighs*

goodbye now.

2007-08-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

computing totally ruined my mood to a zero today. so fucking asshordic-ly tough. I HATE CODES and i really thank myself that im not doing any IT course. *PHEWWWWW*

so neways, me and the girls went over to huiyu's hse during breakout 2 to see her cute lil doggy. the dog's really guai man. one word of sit or no from huiyu and she will do jus that. wahh lau! damn obedient siaa!

enjoying the shiokness of a back rub.

i skipped drama today again. felt kinda guilty for it but i really needed the job at Muji, so me and my bitch went down to bugis to check it out. stupid HQ told us to call back on mon instead. FUCK MAN. wasted my time lah. so gf and i went a lil window shopping at topshop & dorothyperkins before heading down to boat quay coffee bean. we sat & just talked like there's no tmr. glad we got to know each other better, CAMELTOE love! hahaha.

there's my bitch right there.

coffeeBeans. Cinnamon ice blended is my fav.

from a different perspective.

chatter-chit-chit officially ended at 8 45 and we walked to city hall mrt to take the train back home. a bunch of wannabe ah beng and ah lian KIDS boarded the train at marina bay station and we both got TOTALLY TURN OFF BY THEM and the noises made by the girls. IRRITANT FUCK. OH OH OH and not forgetting; i saw lydia on the way to city hall! looking good babe. =)

something i sorted out today: IT WAS NICE MISSING HIM FOR A WHILE, BUT I'LL SAY BYE NOW. =)

and isk? thanks for the warm hug. =) really needed that.

goodnight.

Photography orgasm.

2007-08-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

sleeping rocks my whole world. the ability to sleep thru the morning is even greater than anything on this earth. thank god for the PH that i could use up today's morning to hibernate.

so i woke up at 11, only cuz my sis's voice woke the shit out of me. if not i could have slept longer. sheessh. was planning to go scouting for stuff for the drama production but was too lazy, as usual. instead, i was surfing the net for some interesting pics and i found this coolio pic. cant make it bigger tho, no idea why.

i think its hot in a way.

by late-afternoon, heard bro & sisinlaw were planning to go snap some shots of the NDP so i decided to tag along to learn a thing or two abt photography from my potential photographer bro. haahaa! we headed down to city hall where he parked his car at this shopping mall and walked all the way to the esplanade. I HATE CROWDS, esp today's. we were up-close & personal with packs and packs of people just like in a tin of sardines.

but we got there too late as crowd and crowd of people have already "chope" the best places to watch the damn thing & the fireworks. bro & sis veron was upset & annoyed by it so they only took pics of the happy bustling heaps of people and the scenery.

some random shots i took while lying on the grass.

trying out the camera.

follow my footsteps, i'll lead.

sis Veron & me

by 7 30, we left the place w/o waiting for the fireworks and bro drove us to Vivo where we had Carl's Junior for dinner. after filling our gaps, we browsed through some books at Page One. awesome store i tell ya! i shall go there often from now on. enlightenment by the designs and photography books. WOOHOOO!

sch again tmr so, goodnight world! =)

Manucure Française

2007-08-08T16:12:00.000+08:00

reached school an hour late this morning. fucking shit man, havent been able to pull myself up for this whole week and of last's. holis are coming and im getting lazier & lazier to get up in the mornings.

I HATE SCI,PERIOD. there's a new faci today. she asked WAY TOO MANY QUESTIONS. kinda miss wei wei. breakout 2 was AWESOME so class overall wasnt so bad. raynell, thank you once again for sharing with me the chocolates from shawn today. =) your making me fatter! haaha

and of cause thanks for the manicure as well. your a talent siaaa! love my nails now. =D

process&product of it.
Look down at me satan.

so sch's finally done at 4 30 and there's drama later on. boooooo i have to crack my brains again for the costume designs. but thank god abby love will be there.

breakout, break lose.

2007-08-07T15:55:00.000+08:00

2nd breakout was so doped. snapped, snapped, snapped and more snapping. SO GONNA MISS MY CLASS!! 2 more weeks and a change of class; new people, new faces, new friends. so wacked!

and i kissed WT today. YAY, i kissed my bitch. =P those lips that 'stinks' of chocolates. CAMELTOE/WT I LOVE YOU LAH. hahaa!

i love you sugar. gonna miss you when we change classes next sem. =((

silly james caught on camera.

chocolate-ty tues.

2007-08-07T11:43:00.000+08:00

enterprise is such a bore. im bored, the class is bored and everyone is bored. boooohoooooo! breakout 2 soon PLEASE! shall blast the music next door later on.

thanks raynell for the chocolates. =) loved!

Raynell & myself

time flies.

2007-08-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

got home not too long ago and beat tired. had a major nut time waking up in the morning. my dad had to wake me up 3 times before i got my ass up for school. communications was dry and since the holidays are drawing me closer to it, i couldnt be bothered with the module. we were supposed to take some candid shots for the day and stupid james made a video of wai teng & hui yu on the boobs touching issue. it was sooo hilarious. but for some asshordic reasons, i cant copy&paste the video codes here. so here's the link. listen to the way she talks. DAMN FUCKING FUNNY! aaahaaaaa.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4tDkjoxVGec

so neways, i decided to skip drama today. the drama mood was totally flat and it itches to think abt going for it. and shit lah, i still havent come up with the costume design for some of the cast irene wanted to change. ABBY, COMBINE OUR IDEAS AGAIN HONEY!

for an exchange, i met up win yee instead. damn i havent seen her in a LONG TIMEEEEE! she's still the same old girly i knew from way back since we were kids. we hanged out in her room and talked abt stuff and things that we both missed out on the past months. amazing how time flies and BAM, we are alrd in a poly and JC, taking different routes in life and working hard towards our goal and all. i miss talking to her. but now that we started to really talk again, i hope it will never end babe! =) and thank your momma for the dinner love. it was cracked lah! heeeee! oh oh and thanks for the advise. i really do hope so as well. am gonna look back at the past and laugh at it someday. haaha!

nuf' of blogging. im still under crack abt my stupid RJ for the day + fri's RJ. AAAHAH bet kevin must be cursing and swearing now for the late RJ again, and again and again. SORRY LAH. tsk.

Ladies' night out.

2007-08-05T13:17:00.001+08:00

woke up at 12 today. was supposed to blog last night but i came home pretty late and was too freaking tired to blog lah.

so we had a ladies' night out with nicola, jessica & myself yesterday. we wenta watch 'Alone' at AMK HUB since i have NEVER been there before since it has launched. noob right me, tsktsk. anyways, the movie was pretty alright. the sound effects were the ones that made it look damn frigging scary. after the movie, we decided to head down to city hall and intro the girls to some burmese cuisine. hope it wasnt that spicy-spicy babes! haha.

after that lil burmese expedition, we went to haji lane to check out the club which was mentioned in the email by STA. it was sucha disappointment siaaa! we see no STA artists but a crowd of adults, esp angmohs hanging around the small pub. tsktsk. so no choice but to leave the damn thing and checked out the vintage stores along haji lane. SO DAMN NICE LAH. esp the shop which sells ice-cream, cupcakes and muffins to go along with the vintage shopping. we popped in and had some cupcakes and muffins with baileys' ice cream. YUM YUM!

so what to do next at haji lane around midnight? CAM-WHORE!!! and yea we did just that before taking a cab home. AWESOME night sugar muffins! love you gfs much!! =D

Emotional crisis

2007-08-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

i felt a lil emo-ish today. i dont know what's gotten into me. i thought i've gotten over it for the past few weeks but who am i deceiving. i could lie to the whole world but i cant lie to myself and my inner feelings. i wish things arent the way they turned out to be now.

i miss the old days where i had that silly-childish-but-amazing someone who was there for me whenever i needed him and me, being there for him as well. the emptiness inside me is like a torture. the feelings just wouldnt go away. im sure he has moved on with life and all but i dont know about myself. hate it when i act like a stupid asshole feeling all sad and depressed cuz its SO not me. i cant help it tho. it hurts so bad. i dont know what the hell ever happened to my old strong self.

perhaps im not sad because i have lost him but cuz i have lost a very good friend whom i have always confided my feelings and those hours of talking, it's fucked. those days are gone now, just like a snap of the finger and i'm never gonna get them back again, forever. its true when they say; all good things comes to an end. SO TRUE INDEED.

all i have to do now is to get over it and move on. a piece of me was gone together with the past and i dont want another of mine to dissolve away further. time will tell all and i really hope we could be that close again. but how we gonna do that when we dont even talk no more..

Life = Get up, survive and go back to bed.

BANGs

2007-08-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

freaking cut my hair today. it was bangs and a rush decision made. didnt know what was i thinking when the words left my mouth and shoot off to the hair stylist. jessica said i look younger and fresher; better than my previous 'pau' hairstyle. HAHA!

awwww well, i just hope the fringe would grow back in no time and thats it, IM CHANGING IT BACK TO MY OLD HAIRSTYLE.
i look like an ass in the pic.

awesome awesome party @ RP

2007-08-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

the official open house for RP was yesterday. the waiting part for the PM to arrive was so not cool. worst of all, i was wearing a dress so i had to pull over the RP shirt over it. but, after all that sweaty and stomach growling session, it was ALL SO AWESOME! the after party was so happening and the food was pretty good for a school buffet dinner.

so we all party-ed till 11+. bunch of us gfs wanted to get some booze but were freaking tired from the whole thing, so i shared a cab home with jessica love after that. when i got home and finally sat down, my legs were all so numb and achy from all that standing and dancing. rested for a lil while before showering. was waiting for james to help me out with this whole blog thing cuz im a total noob at this but he was playing games so didnt wanna disturb him. hope he'll be online later, soon.

so yea, thats my 2nd entry right there. =)
and here are the pics from the night.

hello to the blog.

2007-08-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

OK so i finally made a godamn blog in my 18 years of life. haa! seems fun since almost everyone in class has it and been blogging occasionally. so yea, HELLO TO MY BLOG! =D
i just hope i can keep up with a up to date entry everyday.

and sissy & myself went shopping the other day after for what it seems like a million years. miss those good ol' sistas days man, fuck!

I MISS MY OLD HAIR! =(